Its not easy!

Walking along the pavement in the campus during lunch can be quite interesting. Your eyes get to see more than the usual numbers of 'hotties'. This is true... independant of your sexuality.

With my straight friend by my side, I was going towards the cafeteria when I found myself looking at a guy standing near his bike at the far end of the road. Within seconds I realized that my friend could easily spot me looking at this guy. What I didn't realize at the moment was that his eyes were busy scanning the other side of the road. While I was checking out the guy he was checking out girls.
What makes this interesting is that while I tried hard not to let him know what I was looking at, he showed no such inhibitions. This is a huge price that one has to pay to remain in the closet.

Sometimes, its tiring and frustrating to constantly hide your true feelings from those around you. More I get closer to my straight friends more I realize their openness about their sexuality. They have no problems admiring members of the opposite sex and letting others know about it. It is all the more irritating when I am expected to join
them.

It is tempting to get myself into the crowd by extending my pretentious act and try to convince them that 'I am like them'.

Living in a straight world is not all that easy!!!