"who are you?"

After a long time, I received a text message from him. He was one of the very few guys I was attracted to in my college. I never managed to tell him that I was interested in him. I was not prepared to lose his friendship. But eventually I did find myself separated from him. It was too hard to control myself... to stare into his eyes... to hold his hands... to stop my fingers from feeling his thighs... ... ... just being with him. I did not want anybody to suspect that I'm showing any special interest in him. More importantly, I didn't want him to know that. Because I was quite certain that he was not gay.

It read 'good morning'. Such messages usually remain not more than a few minutes in my inbox. But, this was special. I did not delete it. I scanned my inbox for a forwarded message that suggests 'I missed you'. Found something and sent it immediately.

He never replied but continued to send 'good morning' messages. I couldn't help but assume that he had been sending that to all his friends.

Today, I didn't receive any. I don't remember getting any message from his number even the previous day. I scanned my inbox again. This time for some message that is more neutral. Something just to let him know that I'm free.

Within minutes of sending the message, I got the reply. I was so happy seeing his name on my screen. The next moment, it disappeared. Anger, disappointment, and sorrow quickly replaced it.

The message read "Hello, who is this?"

guys4men

Hey guys!
There is this cool site called guys4men.com
If you've not heard of that, may be you should take a look at it. You'll find many guys there with varied interests... I'm sure, you'll find what you want in that site!!!

It does sound strange recommending a site so explicitly. But, I really enjoyed that site. It gives you the privacy you need at the same time interact with other guys.... Found it interesting!

guys4men

Hey guys!
There is this cool site called guys4men.com
If you've not heard of that, may be you should take a look at it. You'll find many guys there with varied interests... I'm sure, you'll find what you want in that site!!!

It does sound strange recommending a site so explicitly. But, I really enjoyed that site. It gives you the privacy you need at the same time interact with other guys.... Found it interesting!

my crush

I am going to describe the guy I have crush on.

He is about 5 ft 8 inches tall, fair and slim. He has a wonderful smile. I can’t say that his smile is his best asset because he is just too beautiful. He has a hairy body. I have seen him only fully dressed. So, can’t say what that fabric hides. I know that he is hairy because I could find a lot of hair at the upper chest that managed to spot one day. Actually, he is not too hairy. I suppose, there is just enough to get me arouse me.

Frankly, I don’t know much about him as a person. This is what I think of him. He is simple and does not have any attitude issues. He is quite confident and seems to like being optimistic. He looks calm composed and masculine. But while talking to him you can’t avoid noticing his gestures and tone that are feminine to some extent. Such feminine features is a turn off for me, but in this guy, it seems to accentuate his beauty. He is an exception. Or, is it because that’s what pulled me closer to him… the possibility of him being gay??????

For a few days, I felt the irresistible urge to be with him always. I thought he was also showing some interest. Actually, I thought I loved him but then realized that it was just a crush. One day, I spotted him with a guy. He was explicitly feminine. I was not very attractive. Although I did not like the intrusion, I sat with them and tried to talk. I noticed that this intruder could not get his eyes off of HIM. I was not jealous but I just did not like it. What bothered me was the fact that he did not pay me any attention but showed in interest in talking about a girl with that guy. Obviously, I didn’t like it. Then, I don’t feel the same about him. He does arouse me still. I think I don’t love him.

depression!!

How deep is depression? thats probably what i was trying to measure today. Don't know why i ventured into this. may be checking out the profiles of so many guys excited me so much that i fell into this phase. afterall every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
Balance is always maintained.
Life is intriguing!!!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!

I wonder what these Santas have got themselves for Christmas????????

Is he gay?

Is he gay? This is the question I repeatedly asked myself for about two hours. In fact, I had been asking this question for as long as 12 years now. Its only the person that the word ‘he’ refers to that changes.

This time, it refers to this guy I met a few months ago. He managed to attract me the moment I set his eyes on me. He has a fair complexion, and a slim body that is little less than 6 feet tall(that’s the normal height here in South India). He is one of the most handsome guys I had seen. My crush on him was quite spontaneous. At first sight, he seemed much like an ordinary guy. I did not even think he could be gay. When I started talking to him, the way he talked raised this suspicion in my mind. Needless to say, I was excited. That was strasnge because, I normally don’t like guys with so-called feminine attributes (no offence). But, this guy was certainly an exception. I didn’t find him eyeing any guy or girl during the entire conversation. The way he moved his hands, the tone in his speech… all made me question his sexuality. Recently, I caught him looking at a girl as she passed. I thought I knew the answer for my question. It was not an exciting ‘yes’. But, within minutes, I found looking at a guy, passing by. From the way he looked (in both the incidences), I could say that he was ‘eyeing’ them. I mean, he scanned the entire body in just a second. I would do that only when I find some really good-looking guy. Unfortunately, I did not see them (the guy and the girl) as I was standing in front of him and the walked by behind me.

Until the last few days of my college, the word, ‘he’ referred to one of my classmate. I did find him attractive but he was not the kind of guy you would naturally tend to think when you say handsome. His round eyes, small lips and those soft thighs made me like him for almost 3 years. Not that I don’t like him anymore.

When I was in school, ‘HE’ was another ordinary guy about whom I mention in my first blog.
I’m sure I’m not the only guy in this world with this question. Many would have found themselves being haunted by the same question many times.

If you are reading this, and had the same problem, can you tell me how to fix this.