Watching My Brother Nikhil...

This is not the first time I am watching My Brother Nikhil. And, this is not the first time I am feeling overwhelmed!



Spectacular performances, wonderful cast, perfectly etched characters, and profoundly touching story....... I don't know which of these makes me classify this movie as one of the best movies I had seen. Although I have this rather irritating habit of finding mistakes, I just couldn't get myself to do that with this movie. Thats probably because this is one of the very few main stream movies that deal with homosexuality and homosexual relationships.

Its not just my prejudice thats responsible for this interest I show in this movie. More important are the thoughts that fill up my mind. Those fears that it evokes in my heart.

The fear of getting rejected by your loved ones... The fear of being alone...

Although I do not identify myself with any of the characters, I did find how real they were... or rather how real they appeared to be... I can very easily understand what the protagonist was going through.

From a positive perspective, the movie was all about love. Its one of the very few movies that portrays love between a brother and a sister so beautifully. (Juhi chawla was marvelous.)

More beautiful was "love between men". There are so many films that revolves around boy-girl romance... This was way beyond these mediocre creations. It was a lovely portrayal of true love!!!

It was more than a year since I watched this movie and it was as fresh as it was when I saw that for the first time. Only difference was that I had my parents sitting with me this time...

Fortunately, (or unfortunately) they showed no interest. They were hardly aware of what or who the story was about. Resisting my temptation to share what I feel, I was trying my best to stop myself from deriving connections between the real me and the reel characters in the movie. It was not easy. Especially, when I am highly conscious of the fact that those closest to me, know very little about me. It was also difficult to stop myself from telling them why he was suffering and what he was going through on screen. In fact, I was waiting for a hint (even a slightest one) from them... But, they were waiting for me to switch off the TV!!! Its not that I blame them. After all, the movie was not in Tamil for them to easily understand...

I wonder how they would have reacted if they had known what the movie was all about... if they had known that those tender affection the two men shared in several scenes was more than just friendship...

I better stop imagining......

Kamal on Kamal

Hey there! I saw a movie recently on TV. I thought should my thoughts about that movie with you...
The movie is Illamai unchaladugiradhu... a tamil movie starring Kamal hasan and rajinikanth. The movie is about 4 individuals whose love life gets entangled in some strange ways. The movie I should say was not very good. It was nothing but mediocre. What makes me write this is the performance of Kamal. He was spectacularly stylish in the movie. Except for him, it would have been 3 hour film of unbearable torture.
Kamal was just too handsome for the the female lead.
There were scenes that one would consider nothing more than ridiculous. Also, there were scenes that makes one wonder why did he(kamal) choose a film like this...
Whatever be the reason, it was interesting to see him in that 'ennadi meentchi' song...
the pants he was wearing was so sexy. He looked amazing from behind and sometimes, one could very easily make out his balls...
I just wonder if anybody had ever told him that before!!!

boringgggggg

oh such a boring day.........
i watched a movie on pix. its called No escape... escape from ..... something. i don't remember. its got tis wonderful plot. a group of men find themselves on this island, separated from the mainland, highly protected.... they are prisoners in facct. there is no woman there. atleast i cudn't see any.
its a perfect setting for a gay movie. to explore the bondage between young healthy men. but the movie is abt some boring stuff.
but the hero was sexy. in fact, the bad guy was too hot. he would be a great homosexual. pity, i don't know their names.
i had to masturbate looking at the hero trying to rescue his friend who by the way would have very easily been his lover. he after all kills himself for the hero.
its wasn't a very bad movie afterall. may be alittle more intimacy between guys and a little more of shower scenes or guys making out.. you know such things .... would have made it more enjoyable.