Changing Dynamics
"do not fall for the straight guys" - words of advice by a good friend...
Have I adopted this advice? Hmmm......I think I sincerely want to but am not able to... at least for now.
After trying to list the possible reasons to believe that his place in my social sphere has weakened, I realized that it has only strengthened in the last few weeks. With nobody to direct my fantasies at, I do not find it easy to remove him from my mind completely. At the same time, my attempts to follow those words adds to the mounting frustrations. The most obvious manifestation of this is longing for loneliness.... and perhaps dislike for all those around him.
The dynamics of my relationship with him continues to change. Most probably, this 'confusion' is temporary. This state is more likely to change in the near future and it would be interesting (at least to me!) to see how things turn out.
Have I adopted this advice? Hmmm......I think I sincerely want to but am not able to... at least for now.
After trying to list the possible reasons to believe that his place in my social sphere has weakened, I realized that it has only strengthened in the last few weeks. With nobody to direct my fantasies at, I do not find it easy to remove him from my mind completely. At the same time, my attempts to follow those words adds to the mounting frustrations. The most obvious manifestation of this is longing for loneliness.... and perhaps dislike for all those around him.
The dynamics of my relationship with him continues to change. Most probably, this 'confusion' is temporary. This state is more likely to change in the near future and it would be interesting (at least to me!) to see how things turn out.
